I'm fine

My eyes are swollen
Puffy and red
Self destructive thoughts
Swirl in my head

If you look at me
You'll know it's a lie
But if you ask "what's wrong?"
I'll just say "I'm fine."

It's not you
It's me I swear
I won't talk about it
It's a waste of air

I'm not shutting you out
I'm locking me away
These walls protect you
From the things I could say

I know you mean well
And know just what to say
But I don't want to talk
Just please... Go away